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Jan. 1st, 2008

02:47 pm - So Much to Say

So the new year brings lots of news. I not only finished my professional practice with flying colors, I got a job at Palos too! My official starting day is the 14th. I'm excited but nervous. My life seems to be on the fast track.

The 14th is also the day i start my last semester of college ever. it's weird to think that at the end of these next couple of months it'll all be over. The next thing after that is taking and passing my certification test....yikes.

The biggest news of all though is that Sam and I are engaged! He popped the question Friday evening. I was very surprised and very happy. I'm writing this from his computer right now (I visited for New Years).

My life is falling into place. It's scary but soo soo soo exciting. And I have the best person to get through it with.

Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful

Nov. 10th, 2007

02:55 pm - I'm Emotional...So Shoot Me

I’ve never been so lonely as to when I found the love of my life.

It sounds like a contradiction but it’s the sad, miserable, truth. I found that it’s harder to be in love and not be able to spend time with that person then it is to have never found love. Till this day I would have never in a million years thought that I would say such an outrageous statement. But times ensue. Before I found love, I never knew what I was missing. Ignorance is bliss.

People take for granted the time they can spend with a loved one. The times spend talking and cuddling. The times of going out to an ordinary dinner. The times spend laying around on a lazy Saturday afternoon. The in-between times of being bored and trying to find things to do. Most people do not have to ever really miss their someone. Miss their arms around you. Miss their smile and laugh. Miss their kiss. Miss their smell. Miss their warmth. Miss their presence…

Yet, once you find your love, you can not let go no matter how long you have to wait to never have to miss them again. And that’s what I’m in the long haul for. I will miss him now because I know he is worth missing. I will feel as if I am incomplete just to anticipate the feeling of completeness. I will give half of my heart because he will give half of his and we will both be whole again. I know the day in which I don’t have to shed a tear upon departure will be the sweetest of all. I know I have him for life. And loneliness is just the rain before the rainbow.

Current Location: in an ice box
Current Mood: gloomygloomy

Nov. 6th, 2007

05:45 pm - A Matter of Honor

I am a member of Golden Key International Honour Society. Yay! I just joined. I'm not gonna lie, the main reason i joined was so that i could wear a special cord with my gown on graduation day. I guess to be recognized and a member is nice too. That, and my boyfriend's going to join as well. He already has a better GPA then me so i can't let him be in this without me too. Haha, no i'm really not that jealous...kinda.

I also got invited to join the Beta Lambda Chapter of the Phi Sigma Society. Bet none of you know what that one's for. It is a biological honor society. That one however, sounds like more involovement. Since i'm not on campus, I really didn't feel like it was fair or beneficial to join it. Although that would be a nice additional, more specific, recognition of my academic achievement.

Anyway, I have three more days left in my microbiology rotation at PCH. Today was busy. I was working on blood cultures and let me tell you, way more people get sepsis then i would have ever imagined. Tomorrow i start my unknowns. *Gulp* I have to select and identify the pathogens in respiratory, throat, wound, and urine cultures. Thank God there isn't one for stool or bloods, or any weird body fluids like peritoneal. I'm not sure what to expect so i'm kind of nervous about it. It'll be the first time i really do this stuff on my own. And for those of you that don't know (julie i know you do) microbiology can be very intimidating. Opening up a plate and looking down at several colony types can be difficult. And then all the IDing and sensing is a whole other thing. I get three days to work on it, so we'll see what happens.

Then after that i get to leave microbiology!!! I thought i would really like it but the atmosphere in that place was terrible. There was actual yelling going on lately between coworkers. Plus, work has been almost doubled because of this MRSA nonsense and everyone ignorantly freaking out about it. Not a very nice environment to work in everyday for a month, let alone all the time. Unfortunately, that might be my best bet for becoming aPCH employee. Isn't that how it always goes. Next week, i start in Chemistry. That should be crazy too but in a better way. I like it over in core lab a lot more. I love the people, and the pace of things. They are getting in new instrumentation and therefore rearranging everything. They are getting a track system that takes the tube, spins it down, scans which tests need to be performed, takes it to the test, and then gets placed into the correct department when it's finished to be stored. It think it even puts a little seal on the tube. It's going to be so cool when it's up and running. It looks awesome so far too.

Hope all is well with everyone <3

Current Location: my bedroom
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: My Konstantine by Something Corporate

Oct. 23rd, 2007

06:05 pm - Myblog istn't Working

Well it's been 73 weeks since I've last posted an entry. A lot has happened in my life since then. I conquered ISU living, found the love of my life, and am on my way to graduating/working. Yet, i can't help but feel a little lonelier. I think i have managed to lose a lot of people that were really close to me in these past 73 weeks. Some were my own doing, but most i'm not sure what went wrong. Yeah I am really busy but i don't know if i'm just trying to make an excuse. Either way, this is how a typical day for Sarah goes: I wake up at 4:15am and I work a full time job that i don't get paid for, I come home around 4 and then i work a part time job i do get paid for, get home at 9 and go to bed. I still have to try to find time to study, talk to my bf on the phone, shower, do laundry, run errands, so on and so forth. I'm not complaining that i'm busy, cause i'm lucky to be 'working' at a hospital but at the same time it sucks for the aforementioned (is that a word) reasons. I feel bad yet i take no action to change things, i know this. I've always been bad at making plans, calling friends, sending e-mails. Plus, usually when i have time for me, i just want it to be me. Selfish, maybe. Needed, definitely. Altogether, my life is kind of strange right now. There's no other way for me to describe it. I don't feel settled. I'm in an in-between stage right now and i don't like it. I want to either live in the past or in the future, not right now. I want to be on one side of the fence. Not balancing on the edge. Hopefully sometime soon i will have some definition to my life that will push me over the fence edge.

Current Mood: listlesslistless
Current Music: High School Low by Say Anything

May. 29th, 2006

07:44 pm - Oh Times Three : Out of Order

Well, this will probably be my last journal entry for a while. Unless someone tells me differently, I just don’t think anybody cares what I have to say on lj anymore. I don’t want to delete my journal account because there are way too many memories on here to erase; I wouldn’t change those for the world. I just won’t be as active on here as I once was. In case you do enjoy catching up on my life, or just having something to read, I will continue to blog on Myspace. You can check it out there (if you search by email, dreemkin84@aol.com, you can find my page)!

With that said, I truly wish everyone out there (acquaintance to best friend) the best of luck in where ever life is taking you. Hopefully the road is a safe, exciting, and fulfilling one. Don’t forget that there will be bumps along the way, but you make life what it is. So just take the bump with stride and learn how to avoid it next time. There is no final destination when it comes to life and learning, so don’t be afraid to travel on a new stretch of highway once in a while and see where you end up. But whatever you do, don’t forget the past roads you’ve traveled, for whether they were smooth or rough, they are how you got to where you are today. Take care and God bless <3

Current Location: bedroom
Current Mood: hothot
Current Music: Lots of Brand New thanks to my babe

May. 22nd, 2006

11:15 am - "Now The Story's Played Out Like This"

I pray that God tells me what to do next and leads me down the right path.

11:10 am - Old

I found an old journal entry that i meant to post on livejournal but forgot to...so here it is:

“You’re Captivating Standing in Front of Me”

Today was moving day. It was really sad walking into an empty room last night and sleeping in a cold, bare room. But all good things must come to an end I suppose. Plus I am excited to see all my friends back home and start work again. Moving out went really smoothly (unbeknowns to me, i lost all my blankets somewhere in the shuffle). I didn’t have too much crap and it only took a few trips down to the car. I guess I’m a light packer! I’m gonna miss my roommate Danielle. We would laugh about the silliest things. And she said she’s going to miss our third roommate, my talking printer lol. But like I said all good things must come to an end sometime.

My parents met Sam for the first time. He was really nervous about it, poor guy. I was actually, for the first time, really excited about introducing my boyfriend to my family. It went well! I think my mom is really pleased and she rarely likes anyone. My dad doesn’t usually say much but he didn’t say anything negative! My mom kept saying that he’s such a nice guy. And she was pleased that he was so polite and helpful and handsome. Even though I know Sam doesn’t have any reason for them not to, I’m still relieved that my mom seems to really like him. At lunch Sam grabbed my hand under the table and held on tight and his look said it all. Saying good-bye was difficult. Sam was trying be positive and say it won’t be long till we visit each other. But like I said, a week would be too long *sigh*

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: Savin' Me ~ Nickelback

May. 12th, 2006

03:30 pm - Shed a tear and then wipe it away

So here I am in my now disheveled room that I’ve called home for the last semester. I’m taking a break from my packing to reflect on this newest chapter of my life. From the first time I moved in, I knew this was going to be a big change for me. Yeah, I’ve been in college before so it wasn’t going to be a huge scholastic shock but it was a huge social and self-realization shock. The first couple days here were a little rough purely because they were so new. I had to learn the ropes of this maze we call Watterson, find my way around a huge campus, suddenly make ALL of my own decisions, and do everything completely by myself. However, it didn’t take me long to adjust. I learned a lot about myself and I met some new people: my awesome roommate of course, Anthony my study buddy (my chair will always be his lol), and others. I loved my room after I set everything up just right, I loved having a change of scenery, and most of all I loved being on my own.

Then one night in Feb, I met someone that didn’t ever except to see again. But the connection was undeniable and having way too much in common just didn’t allow that to be. Thus Sam came into my life. Coming here I excepted to find many things but I never excepted to find a best friend and love. I can’t put into words what Sam means to me. I’ve never found someone that understands me and that I can be one hundred percent myself around, I’ve never found someone that I can have a wordless conversation with, I’ve never found someone so caring and giving and accepting, I‘ve never found someone that I can have so much fun with doing absolutely nothing. I can’t put into words how he has enriched my life. And I’m so grateful that if nothing else, ISU has given me this.

So what about class (after all that is what I was here for)? Yes, classes proved to be trying. And of course the classes I thought were going to be easiest turned out to give me the most headaches and nail biting late nights. Being stressed over 17 page manuscripts and cumulative short answer genetics tests kept me at the library at all hours some nights. But overall, these courses were good experiences and I’m happy with the effort I put into them and seeing that it has paid off in the end. A’s and B’s are a pretty good outcome for the first semester at a University.

But along with all the positive aspects of ISU life, there is the negative. It was hard leaving behind everything and everyone. But going away for five months has also taught me what true friendship means and who is one hundred percent there for me at all times, and who will be there when I get back home. I’ve learned through other’s issues and my own that friendship is a give and take relationship. I’m so glad my eyes are now open and seeing clearly. I’ve met some amazing new friends that I hope to keep in touch with over the summer. Sam (of course), Walker, Eric, Fitz, Jess, Becky, T-crazy and many more. I thank them for accepting me into their group and showing me how to relax and unwind after a tough week of classes. I’ll look forward to more nights at the Island, “the barn”, and Daddios. And I’ll never forget all the fun times: the Jew frat, seeing BOJ and dancing, my first experience with jungle juice (or as we sometimes call it Jesus juice), crawling on my sister’s kitchen floor cause it was easier then walking, peeing in a weed-smelling bathroom with Becky and Jessica while holding the door shut from people that were trying to break in, and Callie swimming in a hot tub in the living room of a random apartment party. I also won’t forget the serious parts: the many questions answered, the late night talks, and the meaningful moments Sam and I have shared over the last three months.

So I guess what I’m trying to say is that, as my room is slowly being emptied and the walls nakified (as Danielle put it LOL), I’m going to miss it here over the summer. But I feel so lucky to be back in the same room next year where I’ve had a lot of firsts, a lot of lasts, and a lot of laughs.

Current Location: dorm for the last time
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: Brand New

May. 2nd, 2006

12:14 pm - Shotgun Wedding

I totally forgot that i'm hitching a ride with my sister home this weekend for the baby-shower (yay, no bus)! I've just been taking the bus home so much lately that i forgot. So, i'll be in a little later than originally expected. Have to wait for Julia to get off work. So I'll be in around 5:00ish. Then probably diner iwth my parents. But then, i'd be ready to hang out. Bowling, pina coladas (sp?), etc. I'm SO there!

:: random thought ~ it's kinda cool that an 'x' takes care of two letter sounds at once (c/k and s). I guess it's good for us lazy english-speaking folk ::

Current Mood: crazycrazy
Current Music: Panic! at the disco

Apr. 2nd, 2006

12:43 am - i had a really fun night

Tonight was nice. I woke up from a nap and my sister said that her, scott, bob (RSB), ellie and amanda were at brewe-ha's. i really like ellie and i rarely get to see her so i decided to walk and meet them there. Julia had tequila and was feeling really good and I just had water. I had a really good time talking to Sam's sisters and it was fun. The whole group makes me laugh a lot. Then Sam came home from Pontiac and met us up there too. I didn't mind just having water and i decided that i was going to drive home everyone to be safe, go D.D.! Then at ju's we grilled out! MMM, hamburgers, hot dogs, pasta salad, and krunchers. Amazing summer time food. Everyone else was drinking but i just had soda which was totally just a decision i made. i decided that i was having too much fun anyway, that it didn't really matter. It was nice. And even though the drama was still going on in the house, it was nice to laugh and have a good time regardless, especially my sister...my buddy. I'm enjoying how close we've become. Sam and i took the bus home from julia's and that was that.

Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: The Hush Sound ~ Momentum

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